Hi all, well as you can see, the title of this epic journal entry is "Pull me under" (Here's a link to listen to the music, if you don't already know this song)  [link]

A whole lot of torment going on in my life Since my last post in December of 2011, it seems my art has halted my marriage, with the blessing of my soon to be Ex-wife, that I should continue to do what I do so well, but I don't want to be here anymore.. Hmm, well had I known any of that, I would have simply stopped shooting Photography altogether, but she would not have any of that. So I sit wondering where to go next. I have sunk significant money into my small little photography studio, and I am at a crossroads at this point in time.

So, the mad process of a Divorce is absorbing my mind, and totally has stolen my creative spare time, as I am obsessed with getting my home, bills and all the stuff back on track. I can only do so much in a short period of time, but I am chipping away at it. For any of you who really do read this, the lesson here is that sometimes art, can become a huge center of your world. Be careful of the absorption, and make sure you can find someone of a significant other who truly believes and trusts in you. Though my Ex-wife believes in me, the shocker is that she didn't want to be with me because of it.

On a positive note, I have just returned from Europe, on a 2 week company business trip. I went to the UK, France and Germany. And got to spend some time in London, and Paris.  After seeing those country's and what is commonly open nudity on general TV, I learned yet again that the Nudity Phobia that takes place, is really only an American problem. Nudity is not so predominant in the United Kingdom, but France and Germany, its not a big deal at all.   So, with that said, this has re-focused my work, and has inspired me to just push forwards with my Art, and my Fantasy, and my New Tactical series of work, as well as the Light painting.

And way after this divorce is over, I will have plenty of free time to work on more of my Digital Artwork in painter.. Gawd I love that program.. Enough so to probably take some painting classes, cause I need that.  

So as the song (Link above) says:

This world is spinning around me
This world is spinning without me
Every day sends future to past
Every breath leaves one less to my last

And the reason why the song ends so abruptly, is because you can die that fast..

So.. Continue to to what your meant to do, because one day soon enough, it will be your times up..


Thanks for reading, I will post more later in the year.
Chris